God + Everyone + Everywhere = God is Everywhere and in Everyone
God = Everyone and Everyhting
Ask God for Help= Ask Someone Around You for Help or Find Something That Helps
Receive Blessings from God = Get Encouragement from Others
Ask God for Forgiveness = Apologize to Who or What You Have Hurt with Wrong Intentions
Praise God = Take Care of Everything and Everyone
Jesus + Son of God = Not God
Jesus + Not God = No Religious Recognition
God = Spiritual Recognition
God + You = God is in You
God = You
You are God= Take Care of Your Damn Self
There is a town that prospered in gardens and greenery. Thousands of fruit and vegetables. It was paradise. Every month they would pour a huge jug of water off the side of a cliff and into a water tower. That jug would be filled by other jugs throughout the month. Every year the tower would be filled with water, just in time for the peak of crop season. They would have a town festival for the release of the tower. They kept track of the water levels, and planned the festival accordingly. Once the water was released it started the wonderful flourishing of every plant in the town for climax of season. It is an honor every year for one special person to tip the jug and fill the tower. That person brings nourishment to all.
One year, the town started going through a dry spell. There was less water to fill the tower for a while. Less crops, less green, and more shriveling and brown. Dust began to blow, and people began to die. Years and years this went on, and almost everything was gone. There were no more festivals, and no more paradise fun. At one point, in what would normally be climax season, an outsider came. A man who visited long ago, when everything was green. He was shocked at what he found,
"No more green? What about the tower?"
"Less water to fill the tower." Says a local townsman.
"There's water. There's plenty of water. You just need to find it, get it, and pour it into the tower." The man said with enthusiastic optimism.
"We need water for ourselves now. We can't afford to use the jug." Said a woman in the crowd.
"Trust me. Make it your main priority to fill the jug and tower. Just like you use too. No matter what. Do it, and I promise that when the tower is filled, the release of it will bring so much happiness in your life that you could never imagine. Your crops will grow again, and continue to do so until you have a paradise better than the last." He says with a huge smile and pure sincerity in in bright blue eyes.
"Will you help us?" Cried out a small boy in the middle of everyone.
"Yes, will you stay with us and help us until it is released?" Says the boy's mother.
The entire town looked at the man, desperate for his answer. The man scanned the eyes of the town and made an honorable smile, "Yes, I will gladly stay to give help and support to get done what needs to be done."
The town cheered and they began immediately by scrounging in their houses and finding whatever water they could spare, and filled the jugs to fill the bigger one on the cliff.
After a short while, people had thought it had been a long while. They began to feel as if they were suffering. Some were angry at the man for coming and confiscating their water. Some thought he was evil for what he was doing. They called him Aquarius The Water Bearer.
Aquarius began to get mass amounts of people together to dig holes and prepare crops for the season, and dig other bigger holes to search for water. Aquarius also sent people away from town to search for water, and bring it back. People continued to die more and more for all sorts of reasons.
"What's he doing? Things aren't better at all! They're worse! We should have never trusted him." An angry woman shouts at the town meeting.
More shout, bicker, and argue about how bad they got it because they have to give up a little more water. Aquarius stands prominently and says, "Excuse me, I know times are hard, and times are down. None of you seem to realize how little of time has passed since I've arrived, and we have been going according to plan. Right on schedule. There's more water in the tower, and looking at an on-time release..."
"All that water in the tower, and we're here dehydrating. We want to survive!" A man stands and says firmly, as the majority ramble behind him, cheering him on.
"Sounds like you just need to ration your water. Everyone needs to. Enjoy it when you need it, and if someone needs water for life or death situation, then share your own and stop being stingy, and stop blaming me. Help each other. I'm not a bad person. I'm doing this for the better of everyone like you all wanted me to. Don't hate me for this. I've used eight ounces in 3 days. How much have you used? Everyone will see how much better the end result will be."
The town was frustrated and upset, but they kept going along. Things have to get worse before they get better. And it got worse. Certain people began to plot against Aquarius to take him out, and release the water ahead of schedule, but Aquarius also has people looking out for him, so, no one could get him. Just when the town seemed like they would all kill themselves, Aquarius gives information to a group of children to run around the town and shout, "Water Festival Tomorrow!"
People in the town got excited and anxious. They had many things situated for the release and held a meeting to set the festival off. Everyone was happy and apologized for their words and actions towards Aquarius, but Aquarius wasn't there. Nowhere to be found, and no one knew anything, except the information given to the children. They planned and set up the festival anyway, but some were scared, skeptical, and pessimistic about the whole thing.
The next night the town crowded around the tower, waiting for Aquarius and the water release. Some thought he fled, and it began to get the crowd frustrated and contemplating bad decisions. Aquarius shows up with a big grizzly beard, and a jug of water, "This jug should fill the bigger jug, then the tower. Releasing what we've all been waiting for."
Everyone was surprised and happy that he came through. He kept his word.
"So, do it!" Someone shouts.
"Yeah!" Shouts the rest of the crowd.
"Can I?" Aquarius asks with a grateful smile and watery eyes.
"You're meant to!"
"You're supposed to!"
Aquarius gets excited and begins his triumphant, determined march up the mountain with the jug in hand, never spilling a drop. He reaches the top, and walks to the jug on the cliff. The sky is clear, stars are bright, the moon is full; a perfect back drop for this moment. He climbs the ladder, pours the water in the jug, and climbs down. He gets underneath the jug, and pushes it up. Everyone's eyes widen and smile as they clench their hands. Their stomachs churn, hearts pump, and faces turn red. Including Aquarius, who strains to topple the jug. The jug finally tips and every drop falls into the tower. The water ripples and splashes. There's a rumble, a click, a pop, and the hatch slides open.
Water rains down, and cleanses the town. The river fills, streams run quickly through the town, and more flows out into the land to soak.
Aquarius stays on the cliff by the jug, watching the town get what they want, what they deserve, and celebrate. He enjoys seeing them the happiest they've ever been their entire life.
The town continued to flourish better than before. Just as Aquarius promised. He will live on forever in the highest regard ever in this town. Aquarius The Water Bearer, and Bringer of Rebirth.
I haven't put anything here in a while, and I'm not sure why. Guess I wasn't sure anyone was reading, but then I started wondering, "Who cares?!" I'm supposed to be doing this for me, not to entertain anyone, but that's what I wanted and tried to do. I need to get back to why I really wanted to start this. Why I wanted to start writing in the first place.
“Writing is a form of personal freedom. It frees us from the mass identity we see in the making all around us. In the end, writers will write not to be outlaw heroes of some underculture but mainly to save themselves, to survive as individuals.” Don Delillo
Come to think of it. I haven't really even written anything at all really. I've jotted a few things down here and there, but mostly about the same stuff, or adding to. I need to start something new, then come back to the old shit. On top of that, I feel that I've been this way in my life. It's only the last few days where I felt like something has been on top of me. Stuck someplace deep beneath the surface of my mind. Everything is going by so freakin' fast in life now. I'm running out of time. Living the "real life" and in the "real world" has taken some getting use to. Especially being in Austin, which is considered huge to me. Only 5 hours from the places I grew up and started to form myself, yet it's an entire world. I do feel slightly awakened somehow. Can't explain when it started, or when it ended. Except, obviously the end happened not long ago.
"If you are going through hell, keep going." Winston Churchill
I'm 25 now, and I didn't accomplish all my goals that I had listed many years ago to achieve by now. I can safely say that I feel I accomplished most, and didn't fully finished some. So, it's not too bad, but I need better now. I'm currently on the search to make things better for myself. One thing is to just try to be happier, but, of course, with the way the world is, my main concern is to earn more money. I need to pay on school, or enroll back in it for easier non-payment methods. Also, I could put a business plan together and try to get a sponsor, help, fundraiser, anything to get it going. Another thing, I could also finish a simple, easy script to shoot at nearly no budget with what I got, and who I have.
"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." Theodore Roosevelt
I have to get more practice and get out there more somehow. Prove what all I have to offer, and what I offer is great.
(Funny quick off topic note. Billie Jean just came on the radio and my dog, Max, is sleeping and his paws are twitching., making him look like he's dancing, lol. It's adorable.)
Anyway, I need to remember to stay focused and on track. There is no such thing as A.D.D., but it's a good thing to blame some things on. So, I've decided to make a list. I can't work properly at my job without a list, and a time to finish. If I don't, then I will be scattered and do things leisurely. Leisure=Lazy. So, I need to try and bring that back to my actual life. Make a list of goals to finish at a reasonable rate. I'm writing this all out to get it out just the way it is, and make it more concrete. Even doing this on a blog where many could see makes it better for me. I always say that's it's easier and better for me to do things, and get them done if I'm doing to for someone else and/or if someone actually asks me to do something for them. Especially if I feel I owe that person something and/or everything, and there's probably many I feel that way about, but it's getting scarce because bitterness has been learning to seep inside me. This way I think it's tricking my mind into thinking I'm promising others, that way I will achieve these goals. Maybe I can get an encourager on different ones ;)
To start things off I need to decide what I really want/need. Ultimately, long term goal, is to own a business, which I would like to be a dinner theater, much like The Alamo Drafthouse except have live theater instead of movies, but play movies occasionally for certain reasons. I would also like to help own and run a production company that puts out films, live theater, music, comics, books, etc... I just like to dabble in all these art forms. I'm trying to find ways to incorporate them all because I have to have them. Mind you, I want to cook, act, and write before and during all this. I would like to have a family as well in the future. The hard part is finding and finishing the short term goals to there. So, by end of this year I would like to have these things done:
1) Finish my two movie scripts
2) Write something for kids
3) Write a story about Lancelot for Alana
4) At least start on a musical
5) Make a short film, which could include a documentary type
6) Write a business plan
7) Make more money regularly, even if it means finding a completely new and different job
8) Get cast in something professional, film or theater
9) Meet the right people
10) Be more positive, and less thinking of negative past issues. Live in NOW.
11) Finish book, which is a collection of short stories
12) Feel accomplished of something everyday, outside of my job
13) Win the lottery *Crosses fingers*...Worth a shot
14) Write a Christmas story
15) Make at least 5 more songs
16) Do something fantastic for my family
17) Do something great for Micah
18) Find better transportation
19) Make at least 5 more "paintings"
20) Help at least 10 people in a great way
I think this is a good list, and a nice round number. I'm gonna make a list of personal things to encourage myself and better myself everyday at home. Maybe this will help my life feel happier. I will update this list to cross things out in a sense, and I look and hope for encouragement from other seeing as how I really can't help but feed off other people and the world. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions on how to help me achieve my goals, or want to add to it, feel free. I feel these goals are very much accomplish-able, so, when I surpass it, then I will feel even better.
Great! I already feel better! Now, time to post this and finish something else by the end of the night. I leave with quotes and videos to inspire and encourage.
"Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once." Lillian Dickson
"Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring." Oscar Wilde
"To succeed in life, you need three things: a wishbone, a backbone and a funnybone." Reba McEntire
"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms;
Then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion;
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything." William Shakespeare As You Like It, 2. 7.
